It's you Mama.

Yesterday as Harris and I drove around town doing our usual errands, he began a rather sweet line of questioning.  He began with this:

"Mama, when I'm grown up, do you think I'll be able to wear Matt's shoes?"  I smiled, realizing how big those shoes seemed to him and said, "I bet he'll let you wear them.  He likes to share with you. He loves you."  He hesitated a minute or two and then said, "Mama, when I'm grown and I'm the daddy, I will still like to do stuff with Matt like go fishing and play baseball."  At this point, I began to wonder what was bringing on all these thoughts.  I soon realized that this little brother loves his big brother so much that he can't imagine his life without Matt.

 I began to get emotional as I drove down the road and replied to Harris with this: "Harris, Matt will always be your brother.  Brothers have to stick together and help take care of each other.  And both of you have to help take care of Macy."  He continued the conversation with "Yeah, but I'll have my own wife and my own kids to take care of too.  How will I find the person I'm going to marry?"  I just laughed and reminded him that he was only 4 and had plenty of time to find someone to marry.  But I was careful to explain that "God has a wife already picked out for you and one day you will find someone that you really love and want to be with all the time.  Then you'll know that she's the one you want to marry."  To this he simply said "Oh that's easy.  It's you Mama."

At that moment I realized that I was this little person's world.  And he is mine.  As a mother with so many things pulling me in different directions, it's easy to lose sight of how much my little ones need me.  I am so thankful to have them and I am so thankful they have each other.